gross.
dirty.
disgusting.
turned off.
unclean.
scary.
i was traumatized. i am still. an old sick, i repeat, SICK man walked towards me and flashed his unsightly "asset" right in front of me while i was walking to school yesterday morning. no one was there except him and me. i have and will never want to watch a RA show but that man forced me to, and it was an ugly flash. my eyes are dirty now. i'll think of the situation when i'm stoning, when i'm sleeping, when i close my eyes. his blurry face just appears. i can visualise it. oh God, it is very disturbing.

great. because of him, i dont even dare to walk that route to school now. i dont even dare to look. im afraid to see him. i really do. because of him, i start to keep a distance with any male elderly. because of him, i have to wake up early to take bus to school( okay that's out of point). because of him, i have to lodge a report. because of him, i cried like nobody's business. because of him, i couldn't concentrate during lesson time. because of him, i'm affected. it's all because of him.

why are there such people in the world? what's wrong with them? what's their problem? seeking attention? showing off? letting females know what they have that we don't? this is absurd. old man. 50plus old man.

yes. i shall put this behind me, right behind me. i know, and i should. i'm trying, but somehow, the fear is still there, not leaving. it takes time, a long time for me to be mentally and emotionally stable.

God, let this be the last. let it pass. let me forgive him. grant me peace. secure me. thank You Jesus, Amen.